I have to first say, it has been quite some time since I've really felt the urge to write. Even when it first started coming back I fought off the urge, telling myself I don't do that anymore. But the longer I tried to hold out, the more I started missing writing. There is just something about writing that calms the mind, something I haven't had since I stopped having a car to work on. Writing just takes the edge off. It doesn't even matter if no one is reading this.
I do imagine that most people who read this know me personally, but just in case that is not always the case, let me give you a little insight to who I am, and what I'm doing here.
I'm getting married on November 1st, 2013. Just writing that makes it feel so real and so much closer. It also makes it seem so much more exciting, more exciting than I ever thought I'd feel about getting married. I'm sure most of that is because I know I will be marrying the most special person I have ever met. She has been there for me through everything over these past years, and I don't think I could have done it without her.
Getting married is probably enough to write about, but damn, our life has been filled with so much new stuff over the past few months. My fiance launched her photography business, which I have now become a part of as well, and it continues to grow. That is something I'm always thinking about, how to expand the business, how to make it a main source of income for us and keep it something we both love doing.
I've also recently gotten a new job at the Taco Bell Corp office in Irvine. I work there as a Service Desk Analyst. It has been really great so far, the end of this month will mark my first 3 months there. I really like the work I do there, as well as the people I work with, which is even more important. I have also gotten a few of my friends jobs there (well, they got their own jobs, I just got them interviews). Life has changed a lot for me just because of this job. I work 6am-3pm, which took a lot of getting used to be. No more staying up till 2am before going to sleep. Going to bed before 10pm has been something to get used to, but it has been happening.
Getting back to the wedding though. With less than a year to go till that special day, I've realized I really want to slim down. It is time to start worrying about what I'm doing to my body staying this big. I don't mind being a big guy, and I know I'll never be 150lbs, and I'm good with that. I just want to feel healthier. I want be able to buy clothes from anywhere. Mostly though, I just want to look back at my wedding pictures and be happy with how I looked. I don't think I would feel that way right now.
My buddy Mark started a 24 day challenge, which has made me want to start one too. I know the challenge will be difficult, especially with the holidays coming up, but it's something I don't want to wait on. I feel that if I can get through it with the holidays, then this is something I could do all the time. A change that will stick. I have dieted before, but always out of reluctance. This is the most motivated I have every felt to change my lifestyle. I'm going to do it right this time. Weekly weight measurements as well as measuring my waist, thighs, chest and arms to see where I am loosing the weight from.
My new job is going to really help me with this. If I can get up early enough, I have access to a free gym at work. Also, our job supplies lots of low fat/no fat snack options. The hardest thing will be kicking soda because it is so easy to drink it at work because it is all free. It's so hard to turn down Mountain Dew, let alone free Dew lol. Soda is so unhealthy though, that I know I can give it up if I put my mind to it.
So tomorrow marks Day 1. I will post on how it goes.
Hope you will all join me on this journey.
I was thinking the same, that if you start this challenge now during the holidays. It will make u stronger to fight any "bad" food. I think you can do it! And hope u stick to it!!! =D
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DeleteNick, I 100% understand your journey. I cant quite remember what I weighed when I got married, but let me tell you I was sad :( I only had 2 dresses I could pick from and they still had to be tailored out because I was too large in areas to fit. As if that was not my biggest disappointment, now that we have been married for a few years we want to start a family. I cannot start a family being this big. I had to make a radical decision. I know that my decision will not be yours, but I still go through the same struggles as every person losing weight. Just know I am here for you. If you want to go out for a walk or go to the gym, im your girl! I cannot wait to renew my vows and be able to put on any gown of my choosing. I sit here 95 lbs lighter and feeling amazing! I have the worse drive, if I could do it, so can you! If you ever need someone to vent to or someone to kick your ass into gear let me know! Mark and I love you Nick and we are proud of your journey!
ReplyDeleteThanks for all the words of encouragement. I appreciate it!
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